it always starts the same

"so there is this boy"... that's how it always starts. And it always has the same ending. For the longest time I thought it was just that I had fallen for complete idiots. But all along it was me. I close my eyes, and jump head first. I dive into these murky waters and I try to feel around for something to cling onto...  but I am left cold and struggling to swim back to shore by myself. My heart is an idiot. After this week I know that more than ever. I haven't learned much since I was 16...